Let the Church Bells Ring

Dear World,

So I mentioned before that I was invited to Nick's (my ex-boyfriend) commitment ceremony with his current boyfriend, Danny. I got an invitation via a facebook event......... traditional I know. How awkward is this? I was sitting there debating if I should put "attending" "not attending" or "maybe." My gut was telling me to click "not attend" but then I thought he is going to think I'm really immature. And if this was his way of making me jealous, denying his invitation would just confirm it. I don't support this ceremony/wedding thing at all, not because I'm some bitter ex-boyfriend cause I'm definitely not, but because this relationship is so fucked up, and let me tell you why.

A couple of months ago Nick caught his boyfriend cheating on him! I heard through the grape vine that Danny met up with some random guy over facebook, and they had sex. Gross. How could you date someone like that anyways? And let me tell you, Danny, is 30 years old, ten years older then Nick. They are just at different points in their lives. Of course Danny wants to settle down, he is so much older. And trust me, he has the mark of a man going through a mid-life crisis. And by "mark" I mean a super botoxed face. Now I know why he's living in his car, because he used all his money on botox. Every time he takes a picture he strikes this really awkward fierce pose. It's a cross between a frightened deer and a startled girl. But that's besides the point.

I honestly don't know why Nick wants me there. I feel like Lauren Conrad, except I'm not getting paid thousands of dollars to attend this wedding. I can't stand the sight of Nick. When I look at him, I just see that imagine of him crying on my lawn begging me not to leave him (to learn more about this click here). But I've decided to just go. I guess it could be fun, free alcohol. Just come and show him how much I've changed. I'll bring a boy, a hot one too from my fraternity. A lot of the guys in my fraternity would get a kick out of going to a gay ceremony and wouldn't ask too many questions if I told them free booze. Maybe I can convince my dad to let me take the Bentley.

So I'm going to go. Maybe their commitment/marriage will work out? Who knows? Because really the only people that understands their relationship is them. And if they really feel the need to commit to each other, then go right ahead. Who am I to judge? I just feel absolutely nothing for him, nothing but disgust. He has screwed me over in so many ways. This was a really immature post, but I don't care. Suck it.


Anonymous